Sunday, July 19, 2009

broken hearted

dear l,
i talked to you on the phone today. it's been awhile. you moved to t and didn't tell me till after the fact. you have only been my friend when you have needed something for YEARS. today you called and needed to know where somewhere in b.r. was for your brother. not to see how i am doing, just directions. the conversation went something like this. you: hey girl how's it going? me: trent got laid off almost 3 weeks ago. we're o.k. with food but i am not sure how we are going to pay the bills in august. you: j needs to know how to get to such in such place. there was no support or anything, just needed directions. you know it's always been like this. do you know how many times i walked ALL the way to your house in the heat after you said come over, i get there, a calls, and you ditch me for her. so what do i do? i cry all the way home and wait for you to call me again. see i have always wanted a true friend to be there unconditionally for me and not brush me aside, like i feel i have been there for you. you remember when you got pregnant and weren't married? you remember all those times e was gone with the army and i was there. every time. i can not be any bodys "only when needed friend". i need to be an anytime friend. it's true i dont get calls to come and do things with people. but i am o.k. with that. i would rather spend my days here by myself with the girls, then spend my nights, broken-hearted ever again.
jeni

4 comments:

Jamie said...

Jeni, honest to goodness, we just called tonight to see if y'all want to come over for dinner and FHE tomorrow. We called but we didn't get an answer (figured y'all were visiting Trent's family). If y'all don't have anything going on tomorrow night, we'd like for y'all to come over. I'll call you tomorrow to make plans. I sure hope things start looking up soon!

Jamie Girl said...

Jeni, there are friends out there who are suckers and just suck the life right out of you if you want. i know that all you want and need in life is someone to be as good a friend to you as you are to others. i am sorry l is such a sucker. i hope that as time goes on you can find one of those great friends that make you skip a small part of your family vacation so you can visit with her instead.
Jamie, please do invite Jeni over...and keep inviting...that girl needs some more friends who are kind and true, like you.

This is Jessica, not Jamie.

Jamie Girl said...

Jeni, there are friends out there who are suckers and just suck the life right out of you if you want. i know that all you want and need in life is someone to be as good a friend to you as you are to others. i am sorry l is such a sucker. i hope that as time goes on you can find one of those great friends that make you skip a small part of your family vacation so you can visit with her instead.
Jamie, please do invite Jeni over...and keep inviting...that girl needs some more friends who are kind and true, like you.

This is Jessica, not Jamie.

Cherie' said...

Aw Jeni, I totally understand how you feel. I have had friends and sometimes family that are like that. Hopefully we can get together soon girl and do something. Big hug!