Wednesday, December 23, 2009

true love


i love/hate sure cuts alot.  why do you have to keep giving me problems today.  dont you know sophia woke up at five a.m.!!!!?  i am already tired and no dr. pepper anywhere in the house!!!  oh well i need to make cookies.  yummy. sure cuts alot, this battle isn't over. i'll deal with you later.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

dear blank

dear (fill name in here),
        so our whole "friendship" you have been using me.  I mean the WHOLE time.  I kinda ignored it at first  but then it became more obvious.  i had actually thought we could be real friends.  i dont really have many of them and not any that live close.  but please dont call me anymore.  i am physically and emotionally tired of doing things for you.  if you call already know that i am unavailable.  it is a fact that people use me.  it has always been like for me growing up.  only getting called or invited out when someone needed something.  i am done being that person.  now i am not going to say what happened today, or who with but if you feel guilty twords someone maybe you should include them a little more.  maybe even apoligize.  you probably weren't doing it intintionally, but it hurts them.  i know.

sleep and lack of

chris colemans groom cake.

i wanna talk about sleep.  So sophia has always woken up in the middle of the night crying.  i can usually turn off the monitor and ignore it till about 5:30 when i crawl out of bed and start the day.  last night was the worse night EVER!!!  not only was she awake for an hour she wasn't crying.  she was BLOODY MURDER SCREAMING!!!!!!!!!!!  i am not joking or exaggerating,  we're trying to get her to the point where the girls could sleep together but it just doesn't look like that's going to happen.  it's only 7 in the morning and shes already tired.  i am tired and maybe not as patient as i should be.  i need to go and get some cakes in the oven.  any suggestions on keeping her asleep at night?

Wednesday, December 16, 2009


the cupcake tree for the ward christmas party.  the picture above that is brooklyn fitting into sophias dress!!!!!  So this past week was a really good week.  Sissy has been feeling much much better.  We went back to the dr on monday.  her test results was it was an epidermal inclusion cyst.  non cancerous!!  we shouldnt even have to go back to see the dr!  I am no longer sick and brooklyns allergies are all under control.  So we're all doing good. 
The flea market weekends are over.  I did a little less then alright.  The weather was just awful.  Freezing one weekend and raining the next.  This weekend I am doing chris colemans grooms cake.  Next weekend is christmas and a possiable 80's themed 40th birthday cake.  Then I get to rest some and not stress so much.  This year for us has been EXTREMELY stressful for me.  which sucks because when i am stressed even if i am eating right i dont loose weight.  thats why i only lost five lbs this year and not my goal twenty.  five is better than nothing though.

Thursday, December 10, 2009


Brooklyn just told me she wants her own sewing machine and a her size cricut for christmas.


that is where the incision is.  I dont know if it is because whatever that thing was, was causing her discomfort but she had been ALOT less grumpy this week.  I mean like NO extra crying at all.  Ill post monday what it turned out to be.

Friday, December 4, 2009

update on sophia

the dr wasn't sure what it is, but he is going to remove it monday at 6:30 a.m.  we're all exhausted flea market starts tomorrow.  i am sick.  more about everything when i can see straight.

Thursday, December 3, 2009

the doctor

So about a week before sophias birthday in september i felt a bump on her face.  when we went to the dr in october he said it was an infected lymph noid, gave her some antibiotics.  nothing changed.  i still wasnt freaked out.  when we went back to the doctor in november he still says it is an infected lymph noid and gave her some thing else.  nothing happened.  so here it is december and today we are going to an ENT specialist at 10:40.  i was still not freaked out or anything, until last night.  we were hanging out with the londons and rachel starts saying she has never seen anything like that (shes a something nurse), blah, blah, blah.  so she is coming with me to the dr to help remember/translate what he is saying it is.  so last night i didnt sleep and today i have a headache already and are extremely ready for the appointment.  oh yeah this week i have been doing research about infected lymph noids.  this is what i came up with.  they happen when you are sick (not sophias case)  they are not right there on the side of your face, and even without meds the go away by themselves within two to three weeks (we're like on week 12 or 13 and she was on meds).  poor baby.